I want everything…like yesterday, and Nick reminds me nobody got it overnight. I look at these houses and these people with nice cars and I can’t imagine how they got there. We are doing things the right way, paying off bills, paying cash, driving old cars that are paid for but I feel like we are stuck sometimes and for the life of me I don’t know how all those people in those fancy cars and big houses are doing it. Nick says Beth calm down we can’t get there overnight and I think it’s been a ton of nights and then I leave and go to run to clear all the clutter from my ringing brain and when I’m done running I sat down at the dock in the picture above to cool off and I’m still for a moment and I remember what The Lord has directed me to do “be still and know that I am God” … gee wiz Beth be still for a second, hey stop running for a moment, slow down. I am flooded with thoughts of all the amazing things I have that are blessing straight from God and I remember it’s not for me to figure out. It’s in Gods hands because I told him I would let him make the decisions because I’m bad at them… Remember Beth, you sometimes make the worst choices available and yes I remember. I remember saying I was letting go and giving it to God and then trying to do it all by myself all over again. What a mess of flesh I am but oh I’m thankful for what I have, I am still for what I will receive and I am joyful simply because I exist. Now excuse me but I think I hear a glass of wine calling my name.
Be still, stupid girl, be still!!