I am unorganized and lazy by nature. When I get home for work what I want to do is take off my clothes, throw them on the floor, and crawl into bed. This is me being honest with myself and there are times in my life I lived in that routine. Utter chaos, total un-organization just flopping along running out of the house at the last minute, frantic searches for that “other shoe”. Uggggghh thinking about it hurts. Point is I have gotten to a good place where organization has killed chaos and I manage my time and money and tell it what to do rather than letting it fly out the back window but it’s still hard. I still want to go straight to bed instead of going running. I still want to throw my clothes directly on the floor when I take them off but I just don’t do it. I thought for awhile it would get easier but I find myself constantly having mental pep talks with myself. Will it ever go away? Why am I like this? It’s parts of myself that I really don’t like, It’s frustrating but I’m glad I’m in a spot where I know how to combat it.